it's an honor to be present

I want to be
present
I really do
I want to be here now
with you
all of me
100 %
But I don't
Don't know what that is
I'm seeking my evolution
myself unfolds
I promise to give you as much as I can
I'll give you the participation trophies
I'll give you the blue food coloring carnations
I'll give you the crumbling concrete crashing through my blistered hands
I'll give you all that I have to give and perhaps it will be enough